Tag Archives: God

I got in!!

25 Oct

Praises go up :pray: and blessings come down. :tearsjoy: Yep…..I finally did it. :thumbsup:

IMG 0279 1 250The Lord blessed me with admission into the Masters of Public Administration program that I’ve been trying to get into. Remember the GRE? Passed it…Remember the Statement of Purpose? Wrote it…Remember that new Apple IBook? laptop Bout to go get that in a month…lol…*shadup, it was my present to myself, remember? lol*

Anyhow…I think the first thing I did besides send out a mass text message was…
hit up the bookstore and buy a hooded sweatshirt. It’s one of my college staples. University Sweatshirt, jeans and a teeshirt and I’m good to go for the day. I might even have to go to the USC Bookstore to get a new sweatshirt since i’ve worn out my old one.

Anyhow, I was happy with all of the faculty that i’ve met so far. That’s one of the things that influences my decision about schools/classes….whether or not I’ll be able to get along with the faculty and blow up their email boxes with questions. :cloud9:

IMG 0282 1 250I havent decided whether or not I’m going to write a thesis or take the comprehensive exam, but Lucho’s given me advice. One of the advisors that I had talked to on the phone previously, gave me some hints and told me that I should write a paper since my gre score for Analytical Writing was so damn high. Maybe she’s right…but I’ll see how I feel after the first semester. Thesis preparation takes 8 months at least, and it all depends on time/motivation.:typing:

Wow….I just want to say thank you to GOD, first and foremost…for opening doors and throwing me through them *giggle*…to my momma, who will need to teach me the words to her alma mater once I’ve got my classes scheduled, and to incog….for keeping me laughing, pushing my studying and just being there to hear me stress and gripe. To everyone out in blogdom…thank you for hearing me out and for praying for me. Praises go up, blessings come down.

Oh and Dear Erika…I’ll post the pictures whenever I FEEL LIKE IT! *giggle* just kidding..i know im slacking, but I was preparing for my meeting this morning, so I will make sure that I post the pictures from this past weekend later on tonight…

To Daddy: Thanks for always telling me to – “Keep your eyes on the Prize“.

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UPDATE

Photos from this weekend are located here.

New Portraits are here.

My Job / New Photos

18 Oct

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I like it here…..I’ve had several jobs that I’ve really liked in the past. My favorite was Milk Fed. OMG, I have so many clothes from there. Milk Fed Clothing Corp was/is a clothing line owned by Sofia Coppola. I worked there as an assistant to the head accountant who would come in once a month to make sure I was on track.

God, I hate numbers…

This coming from a person who has found that everyone wants to hire her and pay good money for her to what?

You got it…..crunch numbers…

I’m hoping that getting my MPA will help me to obtain more Human Resources/Managerial type positions, rather than Accounting/Managerial positions.

Anyhow, I took some more shots with my new camera….

It’s got great quality. It’s got the same features as my old Canon A80, but it’s smaller and i can drop it in my jeans real easy.

That’s it for today…..glad you guys like the layout.
Have a blessed day…

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Blessed

12 Oct

Daily Humor

Very rarely do I talk about past or current relationships in depth…you all know me. But, over the past few weeks, I’ve been able to offer my friends advice and I’m actually proud to say that I can do that. I’m blessed to be able to have found Incog. It’s true what they say, the Lord will sometimes send you through some ISH to get you where you need to be. And BOOOOI….lol

A friend said to me:

I hate that all of my relationships end exactly the same way. A slow deterioration of phone calls then the complete hault of calls all together. I dont deserve that!

And I dont think anyone necessarily DESERVES it, I think it just happens when two people either grow apart or move on. In this case, I’m glad they decided to move on.

Among relationships and love, I’m blessed to have been able to have the things that I have; Home, food, clothes, water. Even the material things that we can sometimes take for granted, ya know? I’m happy to be applying to Grad School, and I know that if I dont get in, it’ll be okay in the end, because He’s just preparing me for something BETTER. Now I KNOW, I’ll be “Suzie on the Spot” to login and post about how sad/upset/stressed I am, if I DONT get in…but I wont hesitate to write the Positive either.

Anyhow, How have YOU been blessed? What kind of things have you been through, where in the end *by the grace of God*, you came out on top?

Have a good HumpDizzle!

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Chatsworth Ablaze…

30 Sep

I’m not sure if any of you who are in California are following, or anywhere else for that matter, but the nearby hills of Chatsworth has been on fire for about 3 days now.

I got a voicemail from a friend on Wednesday saying that the 118 Freeway was closed. That’s pretty close to where I live. I figured eh…118 or 405..doesnt really matter. Those two freeways have been the death of me for the past year. There’s always something going on.

Later that night, I got a call from Incog saying that the hills by his job were on fire..and that they’d been watching the fires since about 2pm that day. He asked me if I wanted to come out and see. It was about 9pm, so I figured, why not? I’ve never seen a fire before.

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Chatsworth is a REALLY nice area. If you continue up into the hills, there are some REALLY beautiful/massive homes. Homes in the area start at about $500,000 and work their way up to the high Millions of dollars. I feel blessed to be able to live even 10 minutes away.

As we drove through the streets towards Chatsworth, we realized that there were a lot of people who had the same thoughts we did. They were driving around the hills watching the hills. It was quite spectacular, and yet…a reality check all the same. Outside, you could see people standing in front of their homes praying that the fire would not reach them. You could see the look of horror on their faces. It was a flashback of the 2003 Chatsworth Fires. Only this one seemed much larger and much faster. There were those who were watching about 2 miles away, using binoculars. When the night sky is lit up like that, everyone wants to have a front row seat. Policeman were blocking off streets to keep people from driving up too far and too close to the front lines.

Do you think it’s a coincidence that there are now Hurricanes and Fires? I don’t….I think God’s trying to make a statement. But I think his statement will reach different people in different ways.

I question the REAL value of homes in California. Property values have been skyrocketing since 2003. There was the great “I want to be a real estate agent” boom. I remember a lot of acquaintances saying that they were going to be getting their licenses. It’s never been my thing…sales. I guess I’m wondering if it’s really worth it to stay in California with property values rising all over the place.

The “American Dream” of having a home with a picket fence and sending your children to private school is looking bleak. Or is that just MY “American Dream”. Maybe I’ll have a really nice home and just send my children to public school since it’ll be cheaper. Or maybe I’ll rent a home, and send my children to private school and splurge once they get to college.

It seems like thoughts like this should wait…but…there’s hurricanes and fires happening here folks. Excuse me for being a little concerned about my future and the future of my offspring.

As we headed towards the roof of the mall parking lot, with every turn, i started to think more and more. By the time we had reached the top, thoughts were flying through my mind as if racing the fires that were speeding 5 miles away.

I have to PASS this GRE with flying colors.

Because if I dont, I wont be able to get into the grad school, i wont be able to earn my masters, and I wont be able to get a good job. If I dont get a good job, then I wont be able to put my kids through private school, and if I cant put my kids through private school…I DAMN sure wont be able to pay for that home on the hill…you know, the one that will be engulfed with all of the flames?

I woke up this morning to tons of ASH and debris on my car. It’s hard to breathe, and they’ve issued a health warning for chatsworth and the surrounding cities. The freeway smells like….Fire, and Fumes, and the color of the smog happens to be DARKER than normal.

I hope and pray that many of the people in Chatsworth who are living THEIR American Dream wont be affected by the spreading fires. I hope that my friend who is a firefighter, will be safe and remember to call on the Lord for guidance and awareness.

Have a Blessed Weekend you guys…

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craziness…

28 Sep

I’ve been wrackin my brain lately and I dont know why…. I guess I’m just dreading taking that test next Wednesday. I know that I need to study more, so I should hop to, but I dont know what’s holding me back. You know how you tell yourself that you’re gonna do bad, so you’re prepared to do bad and you end up siking yourself out? :thumbsdown: I think that’s where my brain is right now. I’ve set my brain to know that if i mess up the first time, that I know I’m going to take it again and do better…But I dont want to HAVE to do that. The GRE costs money…and I’m not about splurging on tests. Are you?

I knocked out in the middle of Gilmore Girls this afternoon, which was a testament to how tired I really am.

I havent even bought my ticket for AZ yet…I’m really slackin it, and if Erika knew, I think she’d kick my ars. Southwest gives you 14 days up until the flight to get that good $108 round trip. I’m really pushin the limit here.

My days are filled with water, designing, running, designing, water, celebrity diet juice, running, and toss a few study pages in here and there. I’m beginning to feel like I’m some type of broken record.

The trainer asked me if I wanted to continue and sign up for another 24 sessions. He’s happy with my overall results. I said “No”, politely of course. I have it in my brain that school is going to cost money, so I need to not dip into ING until March 2006. I havent even bought anything noteworthy in a long time…I mean, come on…you know me…I like to BUY THINGS. I have a serious…..PROBLEM when it comes to clothes shopping online. When’s the last time I posted a hot new pair of pants, or shirt, or some cute shoes? What’s the point in losin the weight if I cant afford sumthin cute to wear after I’ve lost it.

My dentist appt is CONVENIENTLY scheduled at the same time as the GRE appointment. What? *shrug* Shit I forgot, okay?
Two things I dread…scheduled for the same date, at the same time…guess I gotta reschedule the dentist appointment huh? I know…I’ll get on it…

There’s two baskets of laundry sitting on the floor and you know what? I dont even feel like putting shit away.

Is it that time again? Do I need a vaca? Already? God help…

Til Friday….have a good Thursday…

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Floor Warden and Rita

22 Sep

*written Wednesday – Septmember 21st, 2005*
I dreaded coming back to work today *Wednesday* ….only for one reason a “meeting”. And it wasnt just like any old “meeting” you have with coworkers…it was an Office Building Meeting. And to be more precise…it was a Fire Drill Meeting for each company in the building. It wasnt that I wasnt excited, it was just that I was already still tired and already still excited for the day to be over and yet I STILL had to start the morning off with a Fire Drill Meeting.

But I didnt have my thinking cap on until halfway through the meeting…and The reason i was sitting there was unleashed to me at that point…

In the middle of the meeting they stopped for a break…and I noticed a line forming…..could it be? It HAS to be….

FREE SNACKS!! *stomach growling* *rushing to the front of the line*

But my smile faded rather quickly…..
As they handed me my fire red vest and whistle, I thought i was gonna be sick…:fever:. After the firefighter handed me my vest *FOR THE YEAR* he patted me on my back as he noticed the crazed look that had suddenly appeared on my face.

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I was to be the 16th floor….”FLOOR WARDEN”.

Apparently there’s going to be a Fire Drill sometime next week…”God, I hope I’m not here”. Who signed me up for this? I have to…..SAVE PEOPLE? Run from suite to suite, making sure people get out of the “fake” fire?

Well, if I do this…im gonna have to bling this vest out….make it somewhat fashionable…add some glitter or something….and folks better not be lolligaggin around….I’m there for ONE reason only….and that’s to blow that whistle at lolligaggers and talkers…

IN ANY case…..these hurricanes are sumfin else….I just dont UNDERSTAND. First Katrina, and now Rita?

And then i glanced over at Princess’ Blog

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Folks are using the cards they are given to buy Louis V!??! What kinda mess is that??? :???: I just dont get it. Why would you use something that was given to you to buy FOOD and CLOTHING and PAMPERS and MILK to buy Louis V. ? Well that card is probably banned…smh…apparently whoever took this picture didnt block out the digits, so people on the internet were trying to use the card to make purchases. :loser: s

I know I said i wasnt going to post…but I felt all of that needed to be said.

*added Thursday – Septmember 22nd, 2005 @ 9:10am*

Last night was…..well…Over. I got home, rested for a second, talked to my patna in crime, headed to the gym, went to the store, talked to my other patna, came home, roughly cleaned the fridge, put away the groceries, ate cereal by candlelight and proceeded to pass out.

This morning, *thursday* I couldnt sleep, ended up waking up late, and now im here….at work…..and God I hope the week gets better…..:pissed:…Im runnin on empty.

Have a good one ya’ll….:surprised:

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im back kinda

20 Sep

a break...

I guess I’ve been kind of MIA huh….lol..I had to take care of some things on the personal front, so I hope you all understand. Sometimes you just need a breather…time to regroup.

And I have….and will continue to regroup.

The next few weeks, you’ll probably see fewer posts than normal *everyday*….but I’ll still be here….bettering myself, and growing all the same. I’m going to try to sneak in a few photographs..*other than myself*…of the things around me…things I encounter over the next few months….

Changes
Radio.blog Update – Added Anthony Hamilton
Photo Gallery Update
**check the navigational menu for both links**

Upcoming Agenda/Plans

Studying for the GRE: October 5th
Potential Trip to AZ: October 21st – 23rd (pending)
Personal Training: Daily

The 3 Things In Life

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back
1. Time 2. Words 3. Chances

Three things in life that may never be lost
1. Faith 2. Hope 3. Love

Three things in life that are most valuable
1. Love 2. Trust 3. Family & Friends

Three things in life that are never certain
1. Dreams 2. Success 3. Fortune

Three things that make a person
1. Integrity 2. Personality 3. Love of God

Three things in life that can destroy a person
1. Drugs 2. Stress 3. Anger

Three things that are truly constant
1. God 2. Love 3. Family

Love you guys….stay Blessed….

ps. Im still here April. :) Love you too…:heartbeat:
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Last Night..

9 Sep

Last Night was cool…After work, I headed home on the slow-0-5 and finally reached there at about 6pm. I talked to Christal the whole way home. :) My patna in crime…lol. We hadnt talked like that in a few weeks and it felt good to listen and be heard.

After that, I headed over to the gym to get my good workout in. But I got “punished” :pissed: for not coming in the day before *Wednesday*…eh well. everyone needs a good kick in the pants every once in a while. Keeps ya stamina up. *giggle*

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me and some of the sorors & the bruhs….Quefest 2004

After that I headed home to get some work in because I knew that I was going to be doing LITTLE TO NO work this weekend. Around 10pm we headed out to Step Practice for the Fall 2005 Yardshow at USC. It was good to see my sands and sorors again. :grouphug: I’m kind of out the loop now that I live about 30-45 minutes away and we’re all so busy and ….well, GROWN. :girlie:

We grabbed a quick bite at Jerry’s on the way home….nice nice.

It felt good to see everyone again….and by the end of the weekend, I’m sure everyone will be tired of seein me.

I heard from Incog this morning, so that was cool. He’s doing fine and they’re about to make their travels today a little further north from where they are now. I hope things go smoothly..He seems like he’s doing pretty good though, which makes things a little lighter on my brain. Constantly in prayer….

Anywho, here’s my meme for the week…

Lasts…. (COMPLETED 9/09/2005)
Last cigarette: Never.
Last car ride: This morning…on the damn 405
Last good cry: Umm…few weeks ago.
Last library book: ACHA! COMEDY! …..2004…damn USC.
Last beverage drank: Water..Im on a diet, remember?
Last food consumed: Yogurt
Last phone call: From Incog…letting me know that he landed safely….^__^.Thank God…:pray:
Last time showered: Now. That’s what I’ll do after this.
Last shoes worn: Pink FlipFlops <3
Last cd played: 112
Last item bought: Some DVDs for a friend of mine.:surprised:
Last annoyance: SPAM!!!
Last disappointment: One of my fav. coworkers is leaving.. :pissed:
Last shirt worn: My Couture Freak shirt…
Last website visited: Pink-Baby
Last IM: Coley! LOVE YA!
Last song you sang: Ying Yang Twinz – Badd! I’m looking for a dime, that’s TOP O DA LINE! …Hey…i have to have SOMETHIN to rock to at the gym…:lol:
What color of underwear are you wearing? What underwear? HAHAH Kiddin…they’re pink…that is all..
What’s under your bed? Nothin…we keep it perty clean…

Taggin: Cymple, JDID, April, Coley, Frank, & Jorge

I hope you guys have a great weekend…I’ll most definately have pictures from tonight, and tomorrow. SO STAY TUNED! :razz:
Stay Blessed…:pray:

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He’s gone…

8 Sep

I can’t lie, it feels weird. :uhh: He doesnt like me to make a big deal out of things, but he’s flyin to Mississippi…and they’ll be driving to Memphis…That’s STILL close to Louisiana. I feel sick.

I pray to God that everything is alright and he comes back safe and sound. I know his brother will take care of him, so it eases a lot of tension that goes along with…the questions of “are they going to be alright? do they need anything? does he have everything he needs?” If his brother is anything like him, I know he’ll be alright. Can’t wait to meet him one day….

Other than that..things are still cool. We went to the Olive Garden yesterday. I’m not even gonna go into all of the diet sinnery that took place. I’ll just say it was tasty and leave it at that. :cloud9:

I received sample #1 of the line. It’s so cute…maybe i’ll take a picture in it and post it….*havent decided yet*. I wore it to work today. :girlie:

The layout is staying like this…like it or love it…I aint touchin it again until the end of September …yeah right.

It’s Thursday….one more day ya’ll…just one more day. Stay Blessed.

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Ask Not For Whom the Bell Tolls

2 Sep

Ask Not For Whom the Bell Tolls. It Tolls For “Occupant.”
Here’s a thought.
(written by a live journal user)

 Ask Not For Whom the Bell Tolls

It might cross your mind, at some point in the next few days, to write something about how “stupid” the people trapped in the disaster zones have been, or how “lazy” they must be to not have escaped sooner, or how they “deserved what they got” for choosing to live somewhere on the Gulf Coast, within direct reach of hurricanes.

My suggestion is this– sit on your fucking hands. Sit on them until those sentiments no longer make your typing fingers itch.

Natural disasters are ubiquitous. Somewhere in the world, something is always happening… a tornado is touching down, a dam is breaking, a river is surging, an earthquake is trembling, a forest is burning. Some of these events become so routine, that local residents come to view them as quirky inconveniences rather than hellish disasters. Weathering them with a smile becomes a source of pride, an essential element of local character. Inclement weather becomes a feature, not a bug. The national media does goofy human interest stories about it. Locals hook their thumbs in their belts and say, “No sir, them there sulfuric acid geysers ain’t never bothered us none. You just keep the kids indoors and wash the dogs with baking soda after you let ‘em out.”

The Gulf Coast gets hit by hurricanes pretty frequently.

Most of them are nothing like Katrina, or Camille, or Andrew. All of them cause trouble for someone, but most of them pass in a flurry of rain and wind, tear some shingles here and break some windows there, drop a few tornadoes, and then go away. Residents come out of their homes, take the boards off the windows, crack their knuckles, and get to clearing the debris from their streets and their yards. They’ve spat in Mother Nature’s eye one more time and lived to tell about it. Move? Why move, when the weather’s really not that big a deal?

They start to think they can handle anything. And then the once-in-a-century Motherfucker Maximus comes along and turns the landscape into a collaboration between Jasper Johns and Gustav Dore.

Quite a few of them weren’t stupid, or lazy. They were in fact tough, smart, and brave– and acclimated to expectations that didn’t hold true.

Quite a few of them were elderly, infirm, or poor, or without personal vehicles, or families, or anyone out-of-state to put them up even if they could get out.

Quite a few of them were surprised by the speed with which the hurricane gathered force, as was the entire emergency management infrastructure of the entire nation. The state of Louisiana and the city of New Orleans were caught with their pants down, to say nothing of Mississippi, Alabama, and Georgia. So the elderly, the bed-ridden, the poor, and the just plain busy were supposed to gather information how… Ouija Board? Owl Post?

Quite a few of the laggards are no doubt lying through their teeth about why they stayed. Pop quiz– a CNN camera crew shoves a microphone in your face and asks you to tell five million viewers why you stayed behind. What are you going to say– “I just shit my pants and had no idea what to do, so I crawled up on my roof and cried,” or “Ha! Yeah, I saw those fifteen-foot waves, and it’s nothing I haven’t seen before. I lived! Bring it on! Saints are gonna be in the NFC Championship Game, Bay-bee!”

Just reflect on that for a moment. Maybe Peg would’ve been honest, because she has the introspection of a Jedi Knight. The rest of you, I’m not so sure about. Me, I’m not so sure about.

And the macho speculation? The “Oh, gosh, if that was me in there, why, I’d just get out my trusty rifle and pack up my bags and I’d have walked right the fuck out of there, not like those pussies who stayed behind,” bullshit? Don’t sit on your hands. Put them together and pray to whatever god you believe in for a spark of empathy. Keyboard strokes are cheap. You are not special. “Skill” has nothing to do with it. “Deserve” has nothing to do with it.

Two weeks ago, half-a-dozen middle-aged folks taking a bus tour of Wisconsin were smeared against glass and metal because a drunk driver blindsided their bus. This happened a mile from my house. Six weekend vacations ended with plastic tubes down throats and helicopter rides to the nearest hospital.

Did they deserve it? Were they stupid? Lazy? What Matrix-esque midair contortions might you have performed in their place, you who are Prepared For All Contingencies?

Two days ago, a bicyclist in his late twenties was struck by a speeding car on the same stretch of road. He was folded up like a Transformer and pounded halfway through the windshield of the vehicle that hit him. He was nothing but a blood sponge when we got him on the stretcher– and the kicker was he had extensive scars on his chest suggesting a previous close brush with death. He reached the hospital but didn’t survive.

Surely, in his place, you would have done much better, right? Specialist training? Ancient wisdom? Some sort of machomancy that would render you immune to the laws of physics?

He was just a guy on a bike. He was obeying traffic laws. He didn’t do anything to anyone, and he’s deader than shit for it.

Yesterday, a motorcyclist and an automobile driver had a disagreement about right-of-way at moderate speed. They were both injured, seriously but not critically. Dozens of motorists behind them were delayed for up to forty-five minutes by the accident. Did they deserve that inconvenience?

One of those motorists began to pass out and experience some of the signs of an impending heart attack. Did he deserve that, for the sin of sitting in traffic on a hot day?

Where do you live, that’s so free from natural disasters you can pat yourself on the back for your excellent judgment? The Pacific Northwest? Volcanoes and rain! The Midwest? Tornadoes, blizzards, thunderstorms! The Gulf Coast? Hurricanes! The South/West? Droughts! Major cities? Blackouts! Bangladesh? Typhoons! Malaysia? Tsunami! Japan? Godzilla!

Look, if you get caught in a natural disaster, it’s your own damn fault for one primary reason– having been born somewhere on the surface of this fucking planet. Circumstance is chasing us all down, slowly but surely. There’s an expiration date stamped on all of us. Empathy, sympathy, and respect all stem from recognition of this. And there’s nothing cheaper, nothing less considerate, nothing more full of witless sound and fury, than sitting in comfort and safety and taunting the drowned, the displaced, the diseased, the lost, and the destitute for not being the Awesome Hurricane Warrior you would have been in their place.

Have some common fucking courtesy. Some day, I guarantee, you will find yourself in a situation where you will need the life- or health-saving assistance of others, and there’s a good chance some of them might regard you as stupid, or lazy, or foolish, or all three, because of it.

Those judgments will not necessarily be fair. Neither are yours at this moment. So muzzle them.

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