It’s the truth.

I’m just saying it out loud…

It may not necessarily be the answer that you want to hear…and it may not necessarily be right.now.

…but He does…

I’ve got some serious life changing things going on right now.
So I may not necessarily be so quick to write up a post as I would have been six months ago. But I hope that you’ll bare with me…

And stick around to see what things I have up ahead.

Dear God…
Thank you for opening doors that we can not see…
And Thank you for making us strong enough to be able to walk through those doors…
Whatever you want, God…
Whater you want.
Love, Court…

A quick wrap-up of the week would go something like this…

He came.
He saw.
President Barack Obama conquered.

My President is black.

Wow. That felt really good to type and it sounds really good out loud too. I remember saying that over and over and over again on Tuesday… It was followed by the greatest feeling ever.

I woke up Tuesday and spent most of the day on CNN.com Live. I had both TVs turned to different channels that were broadcasting the Inauguration of President Barack Obama.

I didn’t want to go anywhere…
I didnt want to do anything…
The only thing I wanted to do … was watch and listen.

Oh…what a great day. ^_^

The rest of the week wasn’t really much compared to Tuesday…
But I will say…that I’m happy that the weekend is here.
It couldn’t have come soon enough.

Oh yeah…and…

My President is Black.

w00t w00t!

I swear January feels like it just started…but … it didn’t.

I’ve been saying that I was going to type up a post soon, but hadn’t gotten around to it because I knew that whatever I typed was going to be negative…and who wants to follow an empowerment speech with one riddled with … negativity.

If I had the energy, I’d name all of the bad/horrible/negative things that happened so far this month…just so that they could be out in the open and I could move.on.

But I’d rather just state the positive things in hopes of turning this weird little month around and getting back on track for the last two weeks.

So here we go…

• The Eagles didn’t win.
• Tomorrow is a new day to start over.

lol.

While the list may seem small…it brings me much joy.

So…here’s to starting over…even when the end is near.

…alright, lemme try to get some rest…this waking up in the middle of the night is horrible…*sigh*

No matter what happened last year, you now have a mission; it’s a new year…it’s a new chance to start over.

The Regrets

Everything happens for a reason. And no matter how hard you sit and over analyze the things that you couldn’t change even if you wanted to…or how you didn’t do the things you initially set out to do, those things won’t change. Don’t regret them. Learn from them.

The Downs

If I were to ask you to name everything that happened to you last year, I’m sure you’d name about 10+ negative things that happened before you named 1 good thing that happened. Don’t. Yeah, it isn’t as easy as it sounds, but guess what…they don’t matter anyways.

The Uplifts

Remember those negative things you named…well, no matter who you are, or how much of a FAIL year you had previously…there was at least one good thing that happened to you. Think on it. Then…think harder…there will always be at least one more…

The Do Over

So…guess what? It’s a new year…a brand new year to make new changes, to set new goals…and to ultimately develop a better you.

All of those people you pissed off or you allowed to piss you off…apologize, forgive them or let them go.

All of those things you didn’t think you could do…know that you can.

All of those things you wanted to do last year, but didn’t…do them.

Do all that you can to develop the best you that you can be, and don’t let anyone stand in your way.

Go.

It’s 2009…and while it’s hard to believe right now…I know that this year is going to be a great year. There were a lot of things about 2008 that I wish I could change…and do over…but I can’t.

It’s a new year…and I have a new chance to do things the way they need to be done… the right way; the best way for me.

I learned a lot in 2008…some things I wish I hadn’t…but I knew that I needed to learn them. And I’m glad that I did. There are quite a few things about 2008 that I dont want to repeat in 2009. And it’s not that 2008 was a bad year…it’s just that I didn’t do some of the things that I had originally set out to do. And I managed to work backwards instead of forwards in quite a few situations.

I learned that I love deeply…and that I care hard.

I learned that I smile when I feel like I’m about to cry.

I learned that to some people 2 + 2 does not always equal 4.

I learned that I set high standards for people because I continue to set high standards for myself, and when people failed to meet those high standards, I felt let down. But… those were my set standards… and they were not theirs to keep

I learned that I can’t stand the rain, other than to stay curled up in bed.

I learned that I love watching the sunset as much as I love watching the stars.

I learned that for right now…California is home…and that probably won’t change for a while.

I learned that I tend to hold onto my mistakes too long before letting them go and learning from them.

The following statement holds true: People only tell you what they want you to know. And I’m not going to sit here and rehash all of the things that I learned and gained in 2008. But I will say that I learned a lot about myself.

So this is what it is for 2009…

I will continue to love deeply and care harder.

And I will never stop being me.

I’m excited for 2009. Let’s go.