I don’t really know what i feel right now….my feelings are all jumbled i guess…I just wish things were EASIER. Someone once told me that if things start to get difficult, that I need to reevaluate if it’s worth it. I guess…I’m just at the point where I dont know anymore. It’s just tooo hard…..feel like i’m pushing and waiting for the earth to move ….like i should just give up and let go. Maybe i need to take a break…

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I’m thinking I’ll use this weekend to really think about things….I’ll be in Texas with my sands and neos hanging out and havin fun…..it’ll be a chance for me to reevaluate. I started to give myself a deadline as to when i should make a decision. I guess, i’m just used to setting deadlines because it keeps me motivated and it keeps me moving forward…..but maybe that’s the problem. Deadlines. Patience. One thing i always set, and one thing that i never have…..

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I think i’m at that cracking point……

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I regret to inform you…that the pooch in the previous post….isn’t mine. And apparently, we wont be getting one similar. :hissy: But ummm…..yeah…the bag he was sitting in…..well…that’s mine……so what……..I bought a bag….*crossing arms*…..i cheated….a little…..OH FUGG IT, i cheated a lot……AND WHAT? whatcha gonna do ’bout it? *putting up fists* ….A girl has to buy clothes every once in a while…and you want her to at least look stylish RIGHT? *running behind door* I wanted my last purchase to be a good one….and dangit….IT WAS……duncha think? Well, even if ya DONT…it’s already DONE….it’s too late……lemme alone…..*shouting from behind door* WHO ASKED YOU ANYWAYS!

Anyhow…..I can’t WAIT for Wednesday…lol….life will be SO much easier….Mondays are always D-days…..feel like i have to walk in with my fist up ready for a fight. I think we have spinning tonight too……so like shatzi says…. I’m gonna have to take it out on the machine.

I feel like the last few weeks have flown by though…only one more month and 1 week until our Costa Rica trip and i can smell the clean air now. I’m gonna wanna bottle it up and bring it back to Los Angeles, and sniff it every few days to remind me of wonderful days gone.

I finally made a decision about the camcorder and as of now….there’s not significant need for one. I HAVE one….I guess, i need to just calm my cookies until the next latest sony camcorder tech comes out and invest then….come on…let’s be practical…how am i gonna be able to do all the things that I plan to do in the next three years if i keep feeding my technology habit…..*completely and utterly not even MENTIONING the clothing habit - that doesn’t count* :soapbox:

The weekend went rather smoothly…we went to see “The Interpretor” and “Sin City” on Saturday….Sin City was pretty okay….i wasnt expecting to like it since it was in Black & White, but you know what? It was perty good….it kept me enthralled because it was an action movie. I LOVE action movies. Same with “The Interpretor”……great movie…kept ya guessing the whole time….And i think i’d watch it on HBO in Demand when it comes out….maybe rent the DVD…..burn the DVD…..ya know…:thumbsup: After the movies, we went to Starbucks and I got my White Chocolate Mocha….soooo good goin down…lol….

Sunday, i spent two hours in the gym working necessary areas….and tonight….will probably be spinning class…but I’m not sure yet….it just depends on how i feel about driving…lol..

Hope you guys have a Happy Monday! :grouphug:

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it’s Friday and that I have NEXT Friday off….:thumbsup: You know…I cant really complain…this week wasnt really that bad. PRAISE GOD! I wasnt sure how it was going to turn out being that on Monday my behind was on the GRIND for real……I was able to complete a few more sites this week, with two more anticipated for next week…..so more money for COURTNEY! WOO HOO!…..

I dont really know what we have planned for this weekend, but I’m sure, it will be one of much RELAXATION…at least on Sunday for sure…*after the gym of course*. Last night was okay…we watched the Apprentice and 48 hours…..both were new, so it was good. So sad to see Bren go…:hissy: …he was one of the nice ones on the Apprentice. :hissy: I really think Alex HAS become a loser since joining Net Worth….Kendra is a cry baby….the black guy is really cool….except for when he said “Kendra’s had her turn, now it’s mineS”……I thought, ah hell……that’s it for all black business folks….:hissy:….. I know there are a lot of executives thinking, “If he’s the best of the best *non-college grad*, and Donald Trump picked him…..” When i apply for my next job, i might have to walk in there and say, “No ones resume is better than MINES”. *sigh* :wtf:

Anyhow, almost quitin time here…..have a great weekend everyone! :heartbeat:

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